Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Dinnertime for the ducks


We live near a river (which looks like a canal, but it is technically the Jordan River). Ducks often come right up the the wrought iron fence around our patio. Punkin loves to feed them bread. They come right up the the fence and calmly wait to be noticed. It is like their own private drive-thru. They back up a little as the almost two year old runs outside yelling "I got bed! (she leaves the second sound out of double consonants) Then she heaves the whole piece over the railing and watches as they fight over it. "More bed!" she yells and in she runs to get another piece. I try to tell her to tear it in pieces, and sometimes she'll tear it in half, but over the railing it goes. She loves it, the ducks love it, and I love watching it. We do go through a lot of bread that way though. Our local bread store will sell a grocery sack full of bread that is "not for human consumption" for $2.00 I am going to have to get some of that just so when the ducks come by on their rounds wanting fed, the good bread gets left in the kitchen. It is almost a daily ritual with those two ducks. Tomorrow though, they might get Cheerios.

Sunday, March 25, 2007

My son... the goober


I talked with my son on the phone tonight. He is in Texas, staying with my brother, while he decides what he wants in life. He will be 20 in 8 days. I thought about where I was at 20. Did I really know what I wanted? By the time I was 20, I already had Gooberboy, and before I was 21 I had Peach. I thought I knew what I wanted, but what I wanted then and what I want now are VERY different. He's making some good choices now, after years of very poor choices, and I am proud of him for that. I want him to find his way and be happy. Some people know early on where their way lies. Some people look for their whole life and never find the path they should be on. My older brother is a great guy and I'm glad he is staying there. If anyone can get through to the Goober, he can. Maybe then I can change his name from the Goober to something a little more grown-up.

Comforts

It is strange what comforts people and why. When I'm really upset ~ heartache sick ~ I want cheese enchilladas & homemade soft corn tacos. Why?? I have no idea. BUT... it is very comforting. and I always feel better afterwards.

Years ago I had an old flannel shirt that I loved. It was a red plaid and had faded after years of washing. It was a little big on me and the ends of the cuffs were worn and frayed. There were also a few worn spots on the shirt, so I never wore it out anywhere, but I loved it! It was so comforting to get out of a hot bath at the end of a long day and slip that shirt on my damp skin. It hung low in the front and back, but was cut up a bit at the sides in the style of men's dress shirts, not the straight cut that is popular now. Again, I don't know why I loved it so much, or even why it brought me such comfort, but it did. I could put that shirt on after a cry or when I was feeling blue and as the soft flannel enveloped me, so did a sense of calm and peace. I have no idea what happened to that shirt. I wish I did. I haven't seen it in a decade or so.

My 4 year old, Boo, has attached herself to an old blanket. She calls it her "flower blankie" She sleeps with it at night, flowers on the outside, stripes running up and down. Why?? Who knows. I just know she sleeps better when she has it. Would it make a difference if the stripes went cross ways or the flowers were on the inside? It does to her.

There are times in my life when I wish I could eat my cheese enchiladas, snuggle into my old flannel shirt and go to bed with my own "flower blankie". There are times when I'd take comfort any way I can find it just so I can make it through the next day. Luckily those days aren't often. Tonight for some reason, I thought of that old flannel shirt and wished I still had it.

Saturday, March 24, 2007

I'm back!

It's been almost a year, but I'm back! I have been so busy that I neglected my blog. I have decided that I need this as a form of stress relief, so I'm making time for it. My girls are growing so big! Here is my Punkin, Boo, and my Little Cat.
I start college this fall, and we are moving next month. It is going to be busy and hectic, but I'm loving it!